I look to the other brother sets that we have the pleasure of watching grow up, and always think about how you two would be. I have no doubt that you are the best of friends up in Heaven, but I'd also guess that you cause your fair shares of mischief.
Today daddy and I decided to try something different. Since your birthday is in the middle of winter, balloons do not fair so well here in Wisconsin (as we tried any way last year). So this year we bought a chinese lantern.
We had our doubts...
This is made of a VERY thin paper that already had small tears (scotch tape for the win!) and we just weren't sure what to expect.
We went down to the lakefront to avoid all the houses and trees around, didn't want to set anyone or thing on fire!
And we made the trek down the ice covered stairs.
Then we tried to light it...
Daddy was getting more and more worried that I was going to get upset that he couldn't get the lighter to stay lit long enough, I could see the worry on his face. (If you know me, I am not patient and I want things to work esp for special occasions.)
I was doing pretty good, but asked to take over.
I said a quick prayer, and tried at least 5-6 more times until I got that flame to burn long enough to light the wick of the lantern. But I GOT IT!
Happy Birthday sweet Noah. Mommy and daddy still miss you like crazy. I know you don't want us to cry, but you have to understand it still hurts that you aren't here. It still hurts to see the other babies continuing to grow, healthy and happy, when you aren't here.
I promise to be happy today. Today you blessed us with your birth, and the miracle that you stayed with us for two hours. Watch over daddy today too sweetheart. He's driving up for a fun weekend with his cousins. I know it will be hard for him today, so give him a squeeze now and then. We had a quick cupcake for you this morning before we left to start the day. Hope all your wishes come true.
I love you to the moon and back, Noah!
Forever and always, our baby you will be. <3
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| It got stuck for a few moments... but the wind quickly picked up and took the lantern with |
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| Finally wearing my diffuser necklace, but with an addition. Both from a dear friend <3 |
Happy belated bday Noah!
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